I've just realized this when I was writing, but being a pretender is actually an interesting way of living. The definition of a pretender is someone who hides his or her own emotions, and showing another one instead to cope with the current situation around him or her.
While some people think that showing the true self is important, and there are few who are able to do so, being a pretender is actually interesting because there are so many who do so.
Being a pretender means you hide your true self, and the fake one shows up. When you pretend too much, like me, this other person consumes your true self, and the next thing you know, you've lost yourself, and you became this someone else. Others might not be able to perceive though, it's this person they usually see anyway.
It might just be an evolution of the self, but me personally, I start to think the old me was gone. That jealous, zealous, oh-the-entire-world-is-a-trash-can boy. I start to keep all those madness, those words wanting so bad to be shouted out. I know they wouldn't be heard, or they would just be understood, or they'd make me look like a bad guy, so I start keeping them inside.
Oh well, it's not like my emotions really mattered, right? As long as I can make myself look better with this outstretched patience, I'd still be able to take pride in myself.
Isn't that the only thing important?
mardi, novembre 18, 2008
lundi, novembre 10, 2008
Tagged (Again2)
... guess who tagged me?
How much of your teenage life have you "messed up?" (btw I'm still a teen)
[x] Gotten kissed
[ ] Gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] Gotten suspended
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test (I'm so good at cheating that people even think I'm the smart guy giving cheats.)
Total so far: 1
[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school just because you felt like it
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class (and for some other reasons too)
Total so far: 6
[x] Got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] Text people during class
[x] Passed notes (see, this is the other reason)
[x] Threw stuff across the room (... actually this is how I passed notes)
[x] Laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 11
[x] Been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] Took pictures during school hours (taken, to be exact)
[x] Called someone during school hours
[x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
[x] Skipped a class period
Total So Far: 16
[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission
[x] Broke the dress code
[ ] Failed a class (even with all these stuffs going on)
[x] Ate food during class (Nasi Bungkus + Ice Tea)
Total So Far: 19
[x] Gotten a call from school (thank God I could change my voice to a lower tone)
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school (left them at the locker. ... what?)
[ ] Given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[x] Curse during class/school (dude, it's an all-boys school. what do you expect?)
Total so far: 22
[ ] Faked your parents signature (so damn hard to do)
[X] Slept in class (everyone knows me for this one)
[ ] Cursed at your teacher (hey I actually respect them!)
[X] Copied homework (everytime)
[ ] Got in trouble with the principal-the vice principal
Total So Far: 24
Multiply by 3
Grand total: 72%
How much of your teenage life have you "messed up?" (btw I'm still a teen)
[x] Gotten kissed
[ ] Gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] Gotten suspended
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test (I'm so good at cheating that people even think I'm the smart guy giving cheats.)
Total so far: 1
[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school just because you felt like it
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class (and for some other reasons too)
Total so far: 6
[x] Got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] Text people during class
[x] Passed notes (see, this is the other reason)
[x] Threw stuff across the room (... actually this is how I passed notes)
[x] Laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 11
[x] Been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] Took pictures during school hours (taken, to be exact)
[x] Called someone during school hours
[x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
[x] Skipped a class period
Total So Far: 16
[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission
[x] Broke the dress code
[ ] Failed a class (even with all these stuffs going on)
[x] Ate food during class (Nasi Bungkus + Ice Tea)
Total So Far: 19
[x] Gotten a call from school (thank God I could change my voice to a lower tone)
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school (left them at the locker. ... what?)
[ ] Given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[x] Curse during class/school (dude, it's an all-boys school. what do you expect?)
Total so far: 22
[ ] Faked your parents signature (so damn hard to do)
[X] Slept in class (everyone knows me for this one)
[ ] Cursed at your teacher (hey I actually respect them!)
[X] Copied homework (everytime)
[ ] Got in trouble with the principal-the vice principal
Total So Far: 24
Multiply by 3
Grand total: 72%
mercredi, octobre 29, 2008
Boredom
I am bored. Extremely bored.
I got new mangascans and games from a friend. I got things to study. I got my cute girlfriend to talk to. But neither one really interest me at the moment. Well, it's not that I don't want to, but I'm not too eager either. It's almost like the spirit of me has gone away somewhere, wanting for an adrenaline-rushing sensation.
I hope archery would give me that.
I got new mangascans and games from a friend. I got things to study. I got my cute girlfriend to talk to. But neither one really interest me at the moment. Well, it's not that I don't want to, but I'm not too eager either. It's almost like the spirit of me has gone away somewhere, wanting for an adrenaline-rushing sensation.
I hope archery would give me that.
mercredi, octobre 22, 2008
Blindless Obsession
Some people say, love has made me blind. They say, my obsession about my dearest love is absurd, and my feelings to her is over-extended. They might be right, I don't care. But for this moment, I want to say different things than love to my dearest here.
Why here? Why not in private?
Because I know this way she'll work better.
... but maybe staying silent is better. After all, why ruin the sweet emotions with realistic matters?
Why here? Why not in private?
Because I know this way she'll work better.
... but maybe staying silent is better. After all, why ruin the sweet emotions with realistic matters?
vendredi, octobre 10, 2008
Tagged (Again)
Lagi-lagi kena tag sama neng Ipeh.. Oh well, here goes..
50 Random Truths
Moonblade...
1. is 18, but few believes that.
2. actually likes being called an adult.
3. loves himself more than most things in this world.
4. has very dull senses.
5. knows well how to make himself look smart.
6. is obsessed about his dearest love.
7. is hopeless without her.
8. sometimes wonder what will happen if he lays down and die.
9. wants to change the world.
10. aims to be a scientist.
11. hopes that one day he'd be able to get himself twin children.
12. is a QUEEN fan.
13. is recently contaminated by Aerosmith.
14. is addicted to Dungeons & Dragons Role Playing Game.
15. likes most animals.
16. dislikes most insects.
17. wants an Alligator Snapping Turtle as a pet.
18. loves white, red, and gold.
19. dreams to be a knight someday.
20. dreams to be buried in Westminster Abbey.
21. likes English culture.
22. loves to eat anything edible.
23. is a board-gamer.
24. likes to play tabletop games.
25. does not have any talent for painting models, but likes doing it anyway.
26. is an extremely bad singer.
27. wonders, has he mentioned that he loves his girlfriend?
28. weighs around 85 kilograms.
29. has an Oedipus Complex.
30. feels like crap when he's unneeded.
31. always wants to be the center of attention.
32. is born on August 22nd, 1990, and is a Leo.
33. is a student at Institut Teknologi Bandung, School of Life Sciences and Technology.
34. only has three persons he consider best friends.
35. has a Dutch heritage, but people seem to see him as a Chinese.
36. does not smoke, hates to inhale smoke, and kills anyone who smokes in his bedroom.
37. prefers Classic Rock, New Age Music, and Modern Classic.
38. is a curious cat.
39. surrenders to nothing.
40. is an able-bodied fighter.
41. is learning archery.
42. has learned the basics of Judo and Merpati Putih.
43. can crack stone half in one hit.
44. carries a Swiss Army Knife around.
45. is allergic to metal touching.
46. hates Frestea for making him sick a week long.
47. has many dirty little secrets.
48. is sometimes an impulsive person, a risky man, a daredevil, when it comes to making his lover smile.
49. is a data bank for Celestine Empire.
50. wants to say more than these 49.
50 Random Truths
Moonblade...
1. is 18, but few believes that.
2. actually likes being called an adult.
3. loves himself more than most things in this world.
4. has very dull senses.
5. knows well how to make himself look smart.
6. is obsessed about his dearest love.
7. is hopeless without her.
8. sometimes wonder what will happen if he lays down and die.
9. wants to change the world.
10. aims to be a scientist.
11. hopes that one day he'd be able to get himself twin children.
12. is a QUEEN fan.
13. is recently contaminated by Aerosmith.
14. is addicted to Dungeons & Dragons Role Playing Game.
15. likes most animals.
16. dislikes most insects.
17. wants an Alligator Snapping Turtle as a pet.
18. loves white, red, and gold.
19. dreams to be a knight someday.
20. dreams to be buried in Westminster Abbey.
21. likes English culture.
22. loves to eat anything edible.
23. is a board-gamer.
24. likes to play tabletop games.
25. does not have any talent for painting models, but likes doing it anyway.
26. is an extremely bad singer.
27. wonders, has he mentioned that he loves his girlfriend?
28. weighs around 85 kilograms.
29. has an Oedipus Complex.
30. feels like crap when he's unneeded.
31. always wants to be the center of attention.
32. is born on August 22nd, 1990, and is a Leo.
33. is a student at Institut Teknologi Bandung, School of Life Sciences and Technology.
34. only has three persons he consider best friends.
35. has a Dutch heritage, but people seem to see him as a Chinese.
36. does not smoke, hates to inhale smoke, and kills anyone who smokes in his bedroom.
37. prefers Classic Rock, New Age Music, and Modern Classic.
38. is a curious cat.
39. surrenders to nothing.
40. is an able-bodied fighter.
41. is learning archery.
42. has learned the basics of Judo and Merpati Putih.
43. can crack stone half in one hit.
44. carries a Swiss Army Knife around.
45. is allergic to metal touching.
46. hates Frestea for making him sick a week long.
47. has many dirty little secrets.
48. is sometimes an impulsive person, a risky man, a daredevil, when it comes to making his lover smile.
49. is a data bank for Celestine Empire.
50. wants to say more than these 49.
dimanche, septembre 28, 2008
Two Lions
Lions are a proud race. They live for their own selfish selves, to fulfill the thirst for pride and joy of self-dignity. Most of the things they do are based on searching for the satisfaction of themselves. There is no Good and Evil for them, there's just how they look in front of everyone else.
In a Savannah full of wilderness and ferocity, there lived two lions. One was renowned for his ability to withstand, and the other for his incredible prowess. The two were close friends, almost family. Though they lived apart in different sides of the Savannah, sometimes they meet to talk and play together.
Soon is the annual day of forgiveness in the Savannah. The massive inhabitants cluster together, greet each other, and ask for forgiveness to others. It was a way to keep intact the bonds of each inhabitants of the Savannah.
Today, the two lions met.
"I can't go tomorrow."
"Why?"
"It's the day where I have to lie to everyone that I apologize."
"Oh, that day."
"Though I don't even think I have wronged them anything."
"Different stuff for me."
"You're not celebrating?"
"I do. It's just that I'd rather say 'I forgive you' and leave them be."
In a Savannah full of wilderness and ferocity, there lived two lions. One was renowned for his ability to withstand, and the other for his incredible prowess. The two were close friends, almost family. Though they lived apart in different sides of the Savannah, sometimes they meet to talk and play together.
Soon is the annual day of forgiveness in the Savannah. The massive inhabitants cluster together, greet each other, and ask for forgiveness to others. It was a way to keep intact the bonds of each inhabitants of the Savannah.
Today, the two lions met.
"I can't go tomorrow."
"Why?"
"It's the day where I have to lie to everyone that I apologize."
"Oh, that day."
"Though I don't even think I have wronged them anything."
"Different stuff for me."
"You're not celebrating?"
"I do. It's just that I'd rather say 'I forgive you' and leave them be."
jeudi, septembre 18, 2008
Twisted Faith
Sampe sekarang gue masih bingung dengan omongan orang-orang..
"Kalo lo idup di sana seharian 24 jam, pahalanya gede banget lho. Apalagi di bulan puasa."
"Ah gapapa kok gue nemenin kalian makan. Toh ntar pahala gue nambah."
"Bulan puasa tuh saatnya beramal, soalnya pahalanya berkali-kali lipat."
Trus lo mendingan nongkrong di sana seharian penuh sementara kami semua harus baca setengah buku sendiri buat uts gara2 lo gak pernah ngajar? Trus kalo nggak ada iming2 pahala, lo kagak mau nemenin temen2 lo makan? Trus kalo kagak bulan puasa lo kagak beramal, gitu?
Kacrut ah, kalo buat gue sih itu sih sama aja lo ibadah ada maunya, bukan gara2 lo percaya Tuhan or whatever. Trus tujuan lo apa? Pengen banyak pahala biar kagak ditendang ke neraka? Pengen masuk surga? Mati aja sana, ntar lo tau kan sebanyak apa pahala lo.
Btw barusan gue denger lagu yang pas banget. Inti lagunya bilang, "Kalo surga ama neraka kagak pernah ada, emangnya lo masih bakal nyembah2 dan nyebut nama Tuhan?"
Udah mana di kelas ada anak2 (gak gue akuin mahasiswa) perang2an tulisan di kertas antara yang jilbab ama yang nggak pula..
Bleh.
"Kalo lo idup di sana seharian 24 jam, pahalanya gede banget lho. Apalagi di bulan puasa."
"Ah gapapa kok gue nemenin kalian makan. Toh ntar pahala gue nambah."
"Bulan puasa tuh saatnya beramal, soalnya pahalanya berkali-kali lipat."
Trus lo mendingan nongkrong di sana seharian penuh sementara kami semua harus baca setengah buku sendiri buat uts gara2 lo gak pernah ngajar? Trus kalo nggak ada iming2 pahala, lo kagak mau nemenin temen2 lo makan? Trus kalo kagak bulan puasa lo kagak beramal, gitu?
Kacrut ah, kalo buat gue sih itu sih sama aja lo ibadah ada maunya, bukan gara2 lo percaya Tuhan or whatever. Trus tujuan lo apa? Pengen banyak pahala biar kagak ditendang ke neraka? Pengen masuk surga? Mati aja sana, ntar lo tau kan sebanyak apa pahala lo.
Btw barusan gue denger lagu yang pas banget. Inti lagunya bilang, "Kalo surga ama neraka kagak pernah ada, emangnya lo masih bakal nyembah2 dan nyebut nama Tuhan?"
Udah mana di kelas ada anak2 (gak gue akuin mahasiswa) perang2an tulisan di kertas antara yang jilbab ama yang nggak pula..
Bleh.
lundi, septembre 08, 2008
I Have Just Realised..
Bahwa ternyata kalau saya tidak membuang sampah sembarangan, saya memberi contoh bagi orang lain untuk melakukan hal yang sama.
... dan ternyata mas-mas di KBL itu inget sama saya yang tiap kali buka puasa ke sana beli es buah, sampe ngasih es buah gratis.
... dan ternyata The Alchemist karya Paulo Coelho itu mengingatkan saya pada perjalanan spiritual The Prophet-nya Kahlil Gibran.
... dan ternyata ketagihan panahan itu berbahaya bagi kesehatan lengan kiri, khususnya kalau belum ahli.
... dan ternyata masih ada orang yang nemu konci motor di warnet ini lalu ngasihin ke penjaga warnetnya.
... dan ternyata di sekitar saya banyak sekali pertanda-pertanda, hanya saja saya baru menyadarinya sekarang.
... dan ternyata mas-mas di KBL itu inget sama saya yang tiap kali buka puasa ke sana beli es buah, sampe ngasih es buah gratis.
... dan ternyata The Alchemist karya Paulo Coelho itu mengingatkan saya pada perjalanan spiritual The Prophet-nya Kahlil Gibran.
... dan ternyata ketagihan panahan itu berbahaya bagi kesehatan lengan kiri, khususnya kalau belum ahli.
... dan ternyata masih ada orang yang nemu konci motor di warnet ini lalu ngasihin ke penjaga warnetnya.
... dan ternyata di sekitar saya banyak sekali pertanda-pertanda, hanya saja saya baru menyadarinya sekarang.
mardi, août 26, 2008
In Harmonia Progressio
Yeah, the second post without an English title. Cool, huh?
I found the phrase on my friend's pin that he put on his bag. At first I thought it was a religious one, but just today when I put the words on Google I understood that it was one motto from my campus.
Literally it means "Progress with Harmony". Simplistic but catchy, in my opinion.
It was found through research that most graduates from ITB understand thoroughly what field of science they were taught at. Though so, many of them could not implement the intelligence in the real world. This was caused by the understatement of other fields of science. Without harmony with the other fields of science, one field cannot excel. As the world is one, and nature was born by one God, thus science should be one.
Does this theory work in social life?
I found the phrase on my friend's pin that he put on his bag. At first I thought it was a religious one, but just today when I put the words on Google I understood that it was one motto from my campus.
Literally it means "Progress with Harmony". Simplistic but catchy, in my opinion.
It was found through research that most graduates from ITB understand thoroughly what field of science they were taught at. Though so, many of them could not implement the intelligence in the real world. This was caused by the understatement of other fields of science. Without harmony with the other fields of science, one field cannot excel. As the world is one, and nature was born by one God, thus science should be one.
Does this theory work in social life?
mercredi, août 20, 2008
A Dream
I had a dream.
I had a dream when I was a little boy, that someday later I can have twins as my children. One will be a boy, and the other a girl.
I had a dream.
I had a dream when I was a teenager, that I can create a way to make my other dream come true. That is, by modifying biological substances, so my children will surely be twins.
I have a dream.
I have a dream about the world. A single world, unbound by countries or languages, a single pangaea. A prosperous world, where no one would have to be a beggar just to get a scoop of rice. A just world, where no one would have reasons to defy the law. A clean world, where pollution is something that nature can digest again.
But a dream will always be a dream, when the dreamer stays asleep, floating in the everlasting streams of dreams. And the reason why people say, "Your dream is too big" is because they don't have enough courage to dream big. They were afraid to step out of the tiny box of their minds.
Go out there. Explore the world.
There, you will see what God really is.
I had a dream when I was a little boy, that someday later I can have twins as my children. One will be a boy, and the other a girl.
I had a dream.
I had a dream when I was a teenager, that I can create a way to make my other dream come true. That is, by modifying biological substances, so my children will surely be twins.
I have a dream.
I have a dream about the world. A single world, unbound by countries or languages, a single pangaea. A prosperous world, where no one would have to be a beggar just to get a scoop of rice. A just world, where no one would have reasons to defy the law. A clean world, where pollution is something that nature can digest again.
But a dream will always be a dream, when the dreamer stays asleep, floating in the everlasting streams of dreams. And the reason why people say, "Your dream is too big" is because they don't have enough courage to dream big. They were afraid to step out of the tiny box of their minds.
Go out there. Explore the world.
There, you will see what God really is.
mardi, août 19, 2008
Nationalist
Kalian boleh bilang saya tercuci otak karena INKM. Mungkin juga hal itu benar, tapi saya tidak terlalu peduli. Yang penting bagi saya, sekarang saya memiliki pandangan dan kepedulian yang baru terhadap bangsa ini. Yang penting bagi saya, sekarang saya mau mengerahkan tenaga untuk menjadikan Indonesia negara yang lebih baik.
Terkesan muluk?
Kemarin, saya membeli sebotol Aqua di sebuah warung kecil di pinggir jalan. Ketika saya membuka segel botol tersebut, saya bertanya kepada pedagang di warung itu.
"Mas, tong sampah di sekitar sini di mana ya?"
"Ah, buang aja di situ," ujarnya sambil menunjuk ke aspal jalan, "nanti juga disapu."
Saya menggeleng singkat. "Wah, maaf mas, saya nggak suka aja buang sampah sembarangan."
Seketika itu juga sang pedagang menunjukkan sebuah tempat sampah. Dan ketika saya berjalan pergi setelah mengucap terima kasih padanya, saya melihat selintas bagaimana ia mulai memunguti sampah yang bertebaran di sekitar warungnya.
Satu hal kecil yang sederhana dapat mengubah orang lain menuju arah yang lebih baik. Segalanya bermula dari keinginan kita sendiri untuk berubah.
Apakah memperbaiki Indonesia masih terdengar seperti hal yang muluk?
Terkesan muluk?
Kemarin, saya membeli sebotol Aqua di sebuah warung kecil di pinggir jalan. Ketika saya membuka segel botol tersebut, saya bertanya kepada pedagang di warung itu.
"Mas, tong sampah di sekitar sini di mana ya?"
"Ah, buang aja di situ," ujarnya sambil menunjuk ke aspal jalan, "nanti juga disapu."
Saya menggeleng singkat. "Wah, maaf mas, saya nggak suka aja buang sampah sembarangan."
Seketika itu juga sang pedagang menunjukkan sebuah tempat sampah. Dan ketika saya berjalan pergi setelah mengucap terima kasih padanya, saya melihat selintas bagaimana ia mulai memunguti sampah yang bertebaran di sekitar warungnya.
Satu hal kecil yang sederhana dapat mengubah orang lain menuju arah yang lebih baik. Segalanya bermula dari keinginan kita sendiri untuk berubah.
Apakah memperbaiki Indonesia masih terdengar seperti hal yang muluk?
Relativity of Time
Einstein bilang, waktu itu relatif.
Padahal, waktu ya tetap. Berjalan terus, tanpa pernah berhenti. Terus, tanpa pernah ada perbedaan dalam setiap detiknya, setiap menitnya, ataupun setiap jamnya. Waktu adalah mungkin adalah hal yang paling konstan di dunia ini.
Tapi kenapa minggu lalu baru bertemu dengan kekasihku, rasanya sudah seperti berbulan-bulan? Kenapa rindu ini bukan berkurang, malah bertambah?
Science doesn't make sense.
Padahal, waktu ya tetap. Berjalan terus, tanpa pernah berhenti. Terus, tanpa pernah ada perbedaan dalam setiap detiknya, setiap menitnya, ataupun setiap jamnya. Waktu adalah mungkin adalah hal yang paling konstan di dunia ini.
Tapi kenapa minggu lalu baru bertemu dengan kekasihku, rasanya sudah seperti berbulan-bulan? Kenapa rindu ini bukan berkurang, malah bertambah?
Science doesn't make sense.
dimanche, août 17, 2008
Success
What drives you to SUCCESS?
Is it Love?
Is it Intelligence?
Is it Money?
Is it Self-Esteem?
Is it Honesty?
This is a question asked to me at INKM ITB 2008.
And for me personally, the answer is DEVOTION.
Is it Love?
Is it Intelligence?
Is it Money?
Is it Self-Esteem?
Is it Honesty?
This is a question asked to me at INKM ITB 2008.
And for me personally, the answer is DEVOTION.
lundi, juillet 21, 2008
Anger
I do not know why, but in the last few days I've become more of an angry person. I snap out of my wits quicker, I raise my voice more, I don't keep cool at times I need to be, and I now keep grudges. Grudges, I keep. I don't usually do that.
So why do I become like this?
I don't know.
What I know is, I should stop this kind of attitude. I should be back to my old self, a calm person at all times.
Before something bad happens.
So why do I become like this?
I don't know.
What I know is, I should stop this kind of attitude. I should be back to my old self, a calm person at all times.
Before something bad happens.
mardi, juillet 15, 2008
L'art de Vivre la Difference
Hope I wrote that right.
I was inspired by a jewelry store advertising in a mall yesterday. It has those words on it, translated into English, "The Art of Living a Difference". Or maybe not exactly that, you know, since French can't really be translated into anything. But more or less it's about living a different life.
It got me thinking about the difference we all have. Every single one of us differs from one another. Not only that we are separated by genes, we also have different mindsets. Despite all of that, you who read this are probably my friends, or those who know me. Despite all the differences, we can accept each other, and live together in this world.
So, how important is being different?
Being different is actually the most prestigious thing a human can have. It is the ultimate pride to be someone that is on top -- different from the others under you. Difference form the true you, a personality that is only one in this world, that separates you from everyone else. Without a difference, we have no identity. Only a single diminutive piece in this world. And then we will wonder, why are we here?
All in all, difference is one of the most basic needs of Humans. To survive in this world, we have to accept some things that are different from us, learn from it, and continue on living.
Maybe that's the part where Lord Hitler failed to understand.
I was inspired by a jewelry store advertising in a mall yesterday. It has those words on it, translated into English, "The Art of Living a Difference". Or maybe not exactly that, you know, since French can't really be translated into anything. But more or less it's about living a different life.
It got me thinking about the difference we all have. Every single one of us differs from one another. Not only that we are separated by genes, we also have different mindsets. Despite all of that, you who read this are probably my friends, or those who know me. Despite all the differences, we can accept each other, and live together in this world.
So, how important is being different?
Being different is actually the most prestigious thing a human can have. It is the ultimate pride to be someone that is on top -- different from the others under you. Difference form the true you, a personality that is only one in this world, that separates you from everyone else. Without a difference, we have no identity. Only a single diminutive piece in this world. And then we will wonder, why are we here?
All in all, difference is one of the most basic needs of Humans. To survive in this world, we have to accept some things that are different from us, learn from it, and continue on living.
Maybe that's the part where Lord Hitler failed to understand.
lundi, juillet 07, 2008
French Fiesta
I've been learning French for two years before I stopped last year. It was because of the rising pressure in school to pass the final exams and get good grades. That, and I have to get into the second-best university in Indonesia.
And I did all of those.
But I lost my French skills horribly.
So, last Thursday I went to a dinner with my French-Learning classmates. Haven't seen them in quite a while since our little picnic to Puncak a couple months ago. It was fun and nostalgic, and I got to see one of them, a cute woman, now has become a beautiful mother. We laughed all the way, and talked about the ongoing rumours around. We were having a great time together. Then, when it came to talking in French, I was quiet.
I was thinking about taking another try to learn French in Bandung, my soon-to-be city to live. There's an ex-teacher of mine who teaches in one of the universities there. Hope I can learn more, especially about romantic quotes. I love saying those things to my girl.
Well, the first step towards learning French is to change my blog into that language! Yay!
And I did all of those.
But I lost my French skills horribly.
So, last Thursday I went to a dinner with my French-Learning classmates. Haven't seen them in quite a while since our little picnic to Puncak a couple months ago. It was fun and nostalgic, and I got to see one of them, a cute woman, now has become a beautiful mother. We laughed all the way, and talked about the ongoing rumours around. We were having a great time together. Then, when it came to talking in French, I was quiet.
I was thinking about taking another try to learn French in Bandung, my soon-to-be city to live. There's an ex-teacher of mine who teaches in one of the universities there. Hope I can learn more, especially about romantic quotes. I love saying those things to my girl.
Well, the first step towards learning French is to change my blog into that language! Yay!
vendredi, juin 27, 2008
Tagged by Natsu
Instructions:
1. Choose up to five of your own characters.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
I chose:
1. Ego, the Beast of Me.
2. Gild (read: Guilt), the Heart of Me.
3. Cipto, the Mind of Me.
4. Azshara Rivendare, my DnD Character.
What's your opinion on reading and writing?
Ego: Booooring..
Cipto: Oh come on, you can get so much just by reading.
Gild: And you can pour emotions by writing.
Azshara: Just like how I read and write love letters for my wife =D
Ego: You guys are lame, you know? Action's all life's for!
Me: *gives Natsu's photo album to Ego*
Ego: Oh alright, I like reading. *strays off somewhere alone*
What's your opinion on maths, sciences, and language(s)?
Cipto: If we come to a conclusion with not even a drip of doubt, it has to be based on Mathematics.
Ego: Geek..
Gild: Different languages show the many different cultures of people, it's amazing.
Ego: Yeah right, Ms. know-it-all..
Azshara: Love is a science never to be touched by human minds.
Ego: Tsk, what a Playboy line..
Me: How about you, Ego?
Ego: Huh? *still drooling over the pics*
What is the best way to learn something?
Gild: Do, and if you fail, never make the same failure twice.
Cipto: Watch others do it, learn, and don't even make a single failure.
Azshara: To learn something, we must first have the curiosity to want, the courage to try, and the patience to stand from failure.
Ego: I CRUSH EVERYTHING THAT BLOCKS MY WAY! WAAAAAGH!
Me: I assure you, he meant that, literally.
To what degree do you avoid risks and danger?
Azshara: As long as it protects my dearest love.
Ego: AVOID risks? Are you kidding me? Those things give me adrenaline, you know!
Cipto: Risks are always there, it's just how we make the least of it.
Gild: No, I don't wanna get hurt! No! Don't make me cry! NOOOOOO!!
Under what circumstances would you risk your life for someone else?
Azshara: I'll do anything for the safety of my Lady.
Cipto: Maybe.. I should consider it a little longer.
Gild: Listen to your heart, and you'll know.
Ego: I can't explain it, but it comes when your heart beats fast, your adrenaline pushing, your mind all filled with the will to fight, and testosterone just went to the top.
Me: Hey, you can say nice things too.
Ego: OF COURSE! I'm the best man here, you see. *grabs the album back*
Me: Yeah.. right.
Under what circumstances do you think killing someone justified, in general?
Gild: No killing! No blood! Peace for the world!
Azshara: Yeap. In a battle, a gentleman will walk but never run.
Cipto: If you can, trick someone else to do the dirty job.
Ego: Those who defy my will shall pay.
Me: Ego, you're creepy.
Ego: Shut up! If it wasn't for me, you'll be dead by now.
Me: And how is it so?
Ego: Well, I'm the one who stabs your friends to get what you want.
What is the worst feeling you experienced?
Azshara: It is when I found that all this time I have been fooled.
Cipto: When I cannot find an answer to something.
Ego: When I can't beat the sh*t out of my enemies! Damn, I have to be stronger!
Gild: ... When Natsu is crying. It's.. it's got to be my fault!
Me: *gives a tissue box to Gild*
Gild: Thanks.. *sob sob* Huwaaaaa!
And what is the best feeling?
Cipto: Have you ever felt the surge of mind? When you realized that the answer to the riddles was just a..
Me: Next!
Gild: Being loved by the one.. Oh, the heartbeat.. the warm and fuzzy feeling..
Azshara: I second that, Gild.. And the one for me is my beloved wife..
Ego: God, you all act like babies! All men have one desire, and that is to WIN!
1. Choose up to five of your own characters.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
I chose:
1. Ego, the Beast of Me.
2. Gild (read: Guilt), the Heart of Me.
3. Cipto, the Mind of Me.
4. Azshara Rivendare, my DnD Character.
What's your opinion on reading and writing?
Ego: Booooring..
Cipto: Oh come on, you can get so much just by reading.
Gild: And you can pour emotions by writing.
Azshara: Just like how I read and write love letters for my wife =D
Ego: You guys are lame, you know? Action's all life's for!
Me: *gives Natsu's photo album to Ego*
Ego: Oh alright, I like reading. *strays off somewhere alone*
What's your opinion on maths, sciences, and language(s)?
Cipto: If we come to a conclusion with not even a drip of doubt, it has to be based on Mathematics.
Ego: Geek..
Gild: Different languages show the many different cultures of people, it's amazing.
Ego: Yeah right, Ms. know-it-all..
Azshara: Love is a science never to be touched by human minds.
Ego: Tsk, what a Playboy line..
Me: How about you, Ego?
Ego: Huh? *still drooling over the pics*
What is the best way to learn something?
Gild: Do, and if you fail, never make the same failure twice.
Cipto: Watch others do it, learn, and don't even make a single failure.
Azshara: To learn something, we must first have the curiosity to want, the courage to try, and the patience to stand from failure.
Ego: I CRUSH EVERYTHING THAT BLOCKS MY WAY! WAAAAAGH!
Me: I assure you, he meant that, literally.
To what degree do you avoid risks and danger?
Azshara: As long as it protects my dearest love.
Ego: AVOID risks? Are you kidding me? Those things give me adrenaline, you know!
Cipto: Risks are always there, it's just how we make the least of it.
Gild: No, I don't wanna get hurt! No! Don't make me cry! NOOOOOO!!
Under what circumstances would you risk your life for someone else?
Azshara: I'll do anything for the safety of my Lady.
Cipto: Maybe.. I should consider it a little longer.
Gild: Listen to your heart, and you'll know.
Ego: I can't explain it, but it comes when your heart beats fast, your adrenaline pushing, your mind all filled with the will to fight, and testosterone just went to the top.
Me: Hey, you can say nice things too.
Ego: OF COURSE! I'm the best man here, you see. *grabs the album back*
Me: Yeah.. right.
Under what circumstances do you think killing someone justified, in general?
Gild: No killing! No blood! Peace for the world!
Azshara: Yeap. In a battle, a gentleman will walk but never run.
Cipto: If you can, trick someone else to do the dirty job.
Ego: Those who defy my will shall pay.
Me: Ego, you're creepy.
Ego: Shut up! If it wasn't for me, you'll be dead by now.
Me: And how is it so?
Ego: Well, I'm the one who stabs your friends to get what you want.
What is the worst feeling you experienced?
Azshara: It is when I found that all this time I have been fooled.
Cipto: When I cannot find an answer to something.
Ego: When I can't beat the sh*t out of my enemies! Damn, I have to be stronger!
Gild: ... When Natsu is crying. It's.. it's got to be my fault!
Me: *gives a tissue box to Gild*
Gild: Thanks.. *sob sob* Huwaaaaa!
And what is the best feeling?
Cipto: Have you ever felt the surge of mind? When you realized that the answer to the riddles was just a..
Me: Next!
Gild: Being loved by the one.. Oh, the heartbeat.. the warm and fuzzy feeling..
Azshara: I second that, Gild.. And the one for me is my beloved wife..
Ego: God, you all act like babies! All men have one desire, and that is to WIN!
jeudi, juin 26, 2008
Extreme Pride 2
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that whatever you do, it's never adequate for other people?
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that when someone says you don't do enough, what you heard is that you don't do anything?
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that rather than repairing yourself to move forward, you chose to sit down and cry?
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that you know you need help, but you just won't say it because you fear you won't get any?
Well, I never have.
But I've seen people do those things.
And I tell you, it ain't always fun to see.
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that when someone says you don't do enough, what you heard is that you don't do anything?
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that rather than repairing yourself to move forward, you chose to sit down and cry?
Have you ever feel so ashamed of yourself, that you know you need help, but you just won't say it because you fear you won't get any?
Well, I never have.
But I've seen people do those things.
And I tell you, it ain't always fun to see.
dimanche, juin 22, 2008
Ship of Life
Life is like a ship upon an endless sea.
Everywhere there are always waves, ready to strike ferociously. Whether we want it or not, even though we try to avoid it as much as we can, sooner or later the ship would hit some of them and the hull would suffer. It will be thrown by winds, its sails shredded to nothingness.
Every single damage will cause the ship to halt. And every single wound will make the repairs better, reinforcing it so the same waves would not hurt it anymore. The ship will get stronger and stronger every time. Thus, the ship will keep moving.
And if the ship has come to a full stop, then it means that it has been wavestruck so much, that it eventually sunk. When it comes into those, a ship can never stand again to continue its voyage. That is why there are other ships around, so that they can reel our ship from the depths of the sea, and push us forward, again drifting in the endless sea.
Everywhere there are always waves, ready to strike ferociously. Whether we want it or not, even though we try to avoid it as much as we can, sooner or later the ship would hit some of them and the hull would suffer. It will be thrown by winds, its sails shredded to nothingness.
Every single damage will cause the ship to halt. And every single wound will make the repairs better, reinforcing it so the same waves would not hurt it anymore. The ship will get stronger and stronger every time. Thus, the ship will keep moving.
And if the ship has come to a full stop, then it means that it has been wavestruck so much, that it eventually sunk. When it comes into those, a ship can never stand again to continue its voyage. That is why there are other ships around, so that they can reel our ship from the depths of the sea, and push us forward, again drifting in the endless sea.
dimanche, juin 15, 2008
Extreme Pride
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that you become to think that you are great in many things?
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that when you take an exam, and the day has come for you to see the results, you don't feel nervous at all?
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that even when the results are great, you don't jump happily because you know that you are capable of such results?
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that you don't feel excited at all knowing that you're the best in the class?
Well, I have.
And I tell you, it ain't always fun.
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that when you take an exam, and the day has come for you to see the results, you don't feel nervous at all?
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that even when the results are great, you don't jump happily because you know that you are capable of such results?
Have you ever feel so proud of yourself, that you don't feel excited at all knowing that you're the best in the class?
Well, I have.
And I tell you, it ain't always fun.
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