Last night was disappointing, heart-breaking, and somehow irritating.
Even if it would be just temporary like the book says, I still don't like it. I know I don't want to do this. I know what I should do. But it seemed like my brain doesn't work well with my heart. The feeling was gone. There was just void.
And I don't like it.
Mental breakdowns hurt. Time for me to rest, or I'll never get up anymore.